I turned my back on you. Repeating "I'm not going to regret this" over and over. Still, my hand reaching out the last hope between us. I know I've been holding on way to long, it's time to let go. At the peak of me letting go your hold. You came back saying you need me. I don't think twice. I never doubt. I turn over and you hold me tight. Giving all your weight on me to help you stand while you sobbing against me. I embraced you.

"It's okay, you going to be alright. You have me, always."

When your hard time is over, you turned your back to me. Smiling sweetly towards them. They hurt you. You won't show your sad face to them. You glance back at me. Your eyes saying, "Stay there, I'm hurt. I will come to you after." You never wanted to share your joy to me. You show to world "I'm happy with this person ! They are my everything !" 

Wait..

Where's me ?

Forget. I never there.

like a mistress, that's how I lived for you.

Here I am staring at the beautiful view of your moment with unpleasant feeling that I keep pushing back. 

"It's okay, as long as I know. At the end, I'm the one you looking for."

Diandra Melissa