Hey, Assalamualikum readers.

❣ It's the first post for this year. Bonjour 2018 ❣

 Basically i'ts about my hectic and sorrowful life here in matriculation college since I'm stuck here and have nowhere to go.

Beauty without brain

Lately life here in hella kmpp not going pretty well. Why ?  Generally, this happened due to distribution of physical and mental. I sound like a fudging sick educated nerd. But, yes it is. I'm thinking that I might turn insane if I stay here any longer. You know that kind out of screw woman. Yeah... that one ..

THANKFULLY, I only stay here for 10 months.

Main of this update ? About human. I will go super general about this to avoid getting punched in the face. Why tho ? Babe, I already ugly duckling and no thanks for getting another addition accessories in my face.

You. Yes, you.

Like I say, I hate myself for having this cheerful personality. Most of the time, no, every time. It's always me who being the sadistic character in this story. Why it's always me. ALWAYS ! I'm the one who got the blame. Why people ? Huh *smirk ? It's you who trust beautiful people so much that the truth turns into invisible ashes.



I'm very very angry. My blood boiled up till my heart raced in fast pace. I can't blew it off. I couldn't. I wanted to shout it out. But, ended up breaking apart. Crying my heart out soon dried till I can't cry even i wanted to. The day before I'm thinking of being emotionless. Then, the next day, I couldn't help to be bubbly and hyper mood. Deep down I'm crying. You won't see it. You won't feel it. I faked it up ! What a great actress I am, am I ?

The most stupid thing that I have done in this college is being affected by emotional people who cares about no one but herself. You are selfish and you should know. You didn't know you like that ? I'm the only who feel like it ? Bullshit girl. Peoples around you are coward, afraid that they might hurt you and loses in your puppy eyes. It's sympathy.

Beauty doesn't mean a thing when you are annoying asf and idgaf

I'm not your puppet that you stick around me happily like we're long lost sisters and the next minute you act like biatch. Hating me and ignoring me.

You got yourself that pointer and blaming me for not helping you. Shush, hey biatch listen. You the one that choose to ignore me remember ? and you expect me to pop up around you while you so damn annoyed with me. I.Dont.Give.A.Fudge.

hate me all you want.

I already love you. I easy to love people.

My presence in peoples life is giving happiness.

I overacted ? It's something I show to prove I'm okay even though I am not.

Masked it over. It's my ability.
why would you care, right ?