Assalamualaikum :)) ♡

Nak tulis apa pun tak tau .. okayy actually, Rau nak meluahkan something kat blog eventhough tak dak org care.. so, do i care ? about benda yg asyik kacau fikiran Rau since a few months ago .. it's about my life :")) .yeah someone think that i'm not supposed to story about it. Lantak lah blog aku kisah apa ^^

You know as a girl . Every single of us want to get attention from the others. Especially the boys right ? Ini bkn gatal or mengada or gedik or something -,- .but this we call lumrah. Rau since born ada birth mark (tanda lahir) kat mata.. how i have it ? Yah .. you know what we call genetik ? Umm.. abah Rau yg ada then turun at semua sibling Rau. Abang Rau, Amirul Abrar. Dia ada kat pipi. Adik Rau, Faiz, kat punggung. Adik bawah lagi, Azam Hadif, dia dekat dada.. Yaya .. I'm the only daughter in the family .. sadiss bukan ?

it have been 15 years Rau dengar benda yg sama orang tanya kat Rau. Rau tipu lah kalau tak kecik hati langsung. Everytime org tanya about mata Rau. Rau  akan try .. try n try.. try to what ? Try to not dropped my tears in front of them :")) . Everytime org tanya Rau akan jawab "ahh.. mata saya ni tanda lahir dari lahir lagi.. bukan kena tumbuk or saya gaduh tapi ni keturunan turun dari Abah." Yeah .. you know how hurt for me to answer it. Ohmaii i'm about to cry right now.. Rau tarik nafas lepas .. relaks okayy :")) Allah ada ^^ 

Masa kecik2 dulu, Umi selalu tanya sama ada Rau nak buang ke tak tanda lahir ni. Yah.. you know im just a kid that time so mentah2 tnp fikir twice Rau akan reject.. but now bila fikir balik ... faham kan ? Rau tahu bkn Rau sorang ja yg ada tanda lahir kat muka tpi Rau dh fed up with people yg always ckp about my face. Tak reti hargai makhluk ciptaan Allah betul diorg ni. Ahaha :'D .. 

Tpi apa yang lebih menyakitkan .. bila kawan2 Rau dipuji cantikk, comel n etc. Bkn batak ka apa -,- haishh . Kalau awak hidup dalam surrounding saya .. Awak akan faham.. bila kawan2 citer pasal pak we, ada org ngorat, ad org crushkan dia. Me ? Dengar jelah ..even ada jelousy feeling tu. Goshh !! Tears masuk balik please .. no no no .. sedut balik .. haiish dh lah hati jgn la nangis .. okay then .. i need to calm down first tomorrow continue ..